Law of Bentley

Closure (FFS)

2010-02-14T11:55:00.000-08:00

Just for all my ffs friends

~3.56am local time(malaysia) 15/02/10
~a very breeze night
~location:at home and miko near

Just decided i will be quiting all social network fr the meantime,i never think of leaving social network...well i thought i can't live without internet...but i can!hmmm.....So kinda a weird journey and a new one to take...in truth it was blur...i don't know whether anyone would remember or stop by my outdated blog to read what i post today...i should have updated it long ago...but guess i was not settle and not keen to land my pen on this closure~~~well in a very breeze night after the first day of chinese new year...i was playing some computer games,and suddenly i feel wanna to check out my most lovable game friend for sale,i have so much great memories there...i spend days and night just to make my fortunes grow like a giant,well closure calls...and and ending had reached...A new life is on~So i decided to finish my things off...

The main thing is i would like to appologize to all my so called pet in ffs,damn miss all of u...u makes my days so colourful...a rainbow which had 8 colours and not 7!which to spend more days with you guys...But im leaving,was it destiny?i don't know....but it was clear my life now is not clear...

I wont elaborate how i am doing further anyway....=)

in short here is my ffs story:
Started as a newbie knowing nothing about ffs,well im active in facebook since oct 4,2007 hmmm but ffs never cross my mind....until....eddie brought the new game into my life...since then it was interesting cause some girls i dont like kip buying me,so im kinda afraid being own by them,then i started to be active...but stop around march however eddie and kok lin march on!well it is boring~then a sudden blossomm,kok lin and eddie was on a high,they were hype!the way they calculate he game was fantastic,and some many formula to count and strategise in this game,the way to earn profit,i was impress,then i joined them...chun tuck,adam,chee ho,mun chyuan and more join in later,we were crazy,wake up on time just to work pet to earn money,spend so many time finding pet to raise,figure out during my days even in toilet and planning the maths of ffs ...what a great adventure...i meet so many new friends,local,national or international may it be in philippine,thailand,mexico and more.....People were impressed with my gang...as we had bunch of cash....though still far away from many people...last estimated asset and cash summing up on date 2 february 2010,i had 72B...hmmmm not bad,xDD

but disaster strike...but this was my closure...
before i set my line off...
i would like to make some words for certain people who makes my life so colourful in this game...

Eddie Khor>>
I believe in you,and you believe in me...not anymore~it was saddening that this thing happen between us...the thing is i never betrayed you...i don't know what damn shit had happen,but i really appreciate the time we spend together in school chatting all the time and being scold by teachers...and of cause life in ffs...thank you...you were always one of my best friend...i hope the 'trust' will be revive...miss my schooling time with you...

Kok Lin>>
Though it is weird that i had something to express for you...but you were a true friend in ffs...you help me a lot...i would like to take this opportunity to thank you...it was fun,we always take a piece of paper drafting strategies of ffs...circle reset,pet-owner and more...thanks for this experience

Looi Ka heng>>
Can you imagine that??haha the first time we communicate is that i blasted you,i scolded you,just because of ffs...kinda silly when i flash back the moment...but soemthing drove us back so quickly,and we both join force and help each other in ffs...you always helped me,i miss you,as i always mention you in front of all my ffs buddy that you are my top scout....^^ well thanks for your companion...high regard from me

Adam,Chee Ho,Chun Tuck,Sheng Lerk,Guo Hui>>
Thanks for your effort in making 8volution a born baby...though its debut was on 09/12/09...just 3 months till i update this post...really thanks that you all give us some great effort in making this team a reality,though it was ot perfect,but it brings a sign of effort that i could appreciate...^^

进操进操 aka jincao>>
Yet again....this guy the 1st day i meet which started with argument....He's aggressive man,haha but i dont know why...I slow things up and offer him to be my friend...after a tense argument in ffs,just a few minutes later...we were great friends...haha and my ex pet to...really wanna 2 max him...=) thanks for your companion in ffs my KL friend...take good care ya,and i miss joyi,xDDD

Mika Yee & Lai Mei Theng & Wendy Cheong>>
Always wanna 2 max you...and i had done so...im happy...^^ well great to have the chance to chat with you...hope you take good care,well you are one of the SMKTP i manage to max on my wishlist,(Choy ying,Amy leong,Natsumi) i miss them out..>< But it is ok...we are all still friends....=D

Benny Chai & Zyu wenn>>
Happy to be one of the member of your so called family tree...benny nice chatting with you....and arguing with the zeven gang...== haha well zyu wenn my suk nui...you are very cute and sociable...haha will miss you...you both add extra spice in my ffs life...it was enjoyable knowing you both...thanks...

Yee Wan>>
The very first person i wanna 2 max...=) i hope you all all well in taiwan now,^^ well long dint contact you...but i do appreciate and remember all the moment we spend through in ffs...though your friend wanna 2 max you...but you always gonna be 1 of my favourite friend on ffs...miss you...^^

Vincent Hew>>
hey man,your ffs wall all full of boobs...== hmmm well really thanks for your guildance in ffs and chatting with you are fun...you are really sociable and humorous...haha take care buddy,will miss our time fighting with other members in ffs,xD

Andy Qa>>
hey though my gang fight with your gang...but it is really special that two of us can remain friend in ffs so stronly...though the fight between our gang was really damn intense until moderator also gila...hmmm but i appreciate your friendship in ffs...kinda nic guy you are...=D wishing you all the best...take good care and good luck in UTAR or TARC???@@,^^

Jeff,Choon Heng,Mun Keong & Mick>>
Glad to have your ears buddy..haha you all listen my lecture for so many hours in genting...and you guys' passion for ffs was so new that it seems like im an old man trying to teach you guys....@@ try call me liang zai when you run into me...haha handsome bro ok????not mummy....=( haha take care guys

Yiyi tan,qi pong xiao qi,cynye>>
Nice to meet you all...all liang nui from around malaysia...haha just to say that you guys beautify my page in ffs...^^ take gud care ya

Mun Chyuan,Boon Kin,Teck Hou,Cho Yong,Thye Leang>>
Happy that you guys are my understudy....my bro in everything...haha wtf man...@@ ooppsss anyway thanks for the support and dont really have much to say about you all...just faster come back from KL la,xD

Gyni>>
well my phillipine friend...you are very talkative...my friend even says that you are writing story on my page...haha but i dun mind reply every 1 of your comment...i feel you are a very good friend to me,getting to know you was an extra light in my life...you are very caring and i do love to chat with you...hope you manage to court the cute boy you mention...study hard and i would love to keep in touch with you...take good care~

Chinnie Perez>>
Wanted to max you since so long...and finally landed you at my page...you are one of my favourite pet,your friendliness is wat i appreciate most...though im cant keep you anymore,but in reality you are always be my best pal.....what a lucky guy to meet you...really appreciate it...don't be sad sometimes k??i can't help much,but when you needed me,i will be available...^^ don't bother guys who don't willing to sacrifice for you...stay a good girl...^^

Amy leong & Bryan Tan>>
My cute nui amy and chicky son bryan....== hmmm been your dad for 5 years already....time past by so so so fast...well glad have you two in my life...^^ though not always meet,but sometimes it feels bit emotional...Guess im a lousy dad to you all...(Wai Yee,Poh Shin,Daphnne,Xiao Hwa,Joo Hung,Jing Hui),the worst part is you guys' love life...sometimes you all want my opinion,though i dont comment much,but actually i do have lots of opinion,is just i don't wanna to hurt our relation...cause you have your freedom in love...well sorry about that...seeing you all break up with your boy friends so many times,it kinda sad...but i hope you all moves on...and just like in ffs...amy n bryan...i need to move on,^^ and i choose to quit...hope both of you a happy life ever after!

Mintzaii>>
My only thailand friend which is so close to me,though you are 1 year older than me,but you always seems to be so young..haha always calling me boss...i like that call....really miss you...you are one of my favourite pet....Not now...Now you are my best pal from thailand...hope could meet you in real life...i want the cheesecake from thailand...^^ chatting with you are a bit difficult,as it was really funny that we chat i thai,as im using translator to chat...i don't mind how bad your english are and how sucks my thai language are....but i remember that the feelings between us is strong...i miss this friendship...take good care mint for spending time teaching me thai words...though till now i still can't master,@@ xDDDD miss ya

SeiYi>>
Last but not least...i won't deny myself...you will remain my only one pet...i was all to blame for...if you ever read this post...i hope you know 1 thing...i was always who i am since the 1st day you meet me...im emotional but you just got to remember i always loves to put people before myself...look forward to see you again...maybe 1 year later??or 10 or maybe 30??i dont know...but i know 1 thing...that is we will meet again...with a mix feelings in the future...you are the kindest person i ever meet in my life...1 that is gullible,emotional,gentle and caring....may you and your boy friend happy ever after...take good care~

Guess im going 2 stop writing now...it is 5.10am local time now...long i think and typing...happy flashing back all the moment and hardship in ffs...i won't miss you ffs...cause you are just a game!!!I will only miss all the friends i meet in ffs...i love all of you...highest salute and regard from me...Here a malaysian poem from me~

"there was so much crying you still have to make;
there was still so much hardship you carry upon your shoulder;
there is no life,
there is just death,
because just 1 minute....just 1 minute,
of love we always wanna them to know how much we loves them;
skies were so bright;
fields were so green;
winds were feels so alive;
it drifts you away...
as you are not undone;
cause still,shadows beside you are standing still,
for you,
and forever after
burdening tears,load,death and of cause...... smiles in the end"

appreciate every shadows stadning beside you...

My closure is finally rested,and when there is closure,mind yourself...there is a new opening...=)
im looking forward to it...

THE END

Birthday Bash!!!

2009-12-15T02:45:00.000-08:00

11/12/2009 really offers me a great night,haha get to be with friends,teasing my friend qiuyun, wei theen and mak ghor always..haha and of cause it was my brithday...and it comes in package...qiu yun birthday was on 9th,mine 11th and sheng lerk was on 13th....don't forget hsien jin aka mak ghor also..he's on 18th...xD but it also ends with goodbyes to 2 of my best friend wei theen and qiu yun...they are heading back to their hoemtown rompin,T.T gonna miss you two...So,the hero's birthday bash just started like this!!!

yeah,that's me...haha and my small cake from my 6A2 class,=D

yee joo, jia hui and me..haha we were blowing the cake right at the middle of TC..ermmm weird..><

yeah yeah...all ex tanah putih heroes..haha my tp bro suddenly show up,kinda surprise le,^^ really happy though only 3 of them show up,haha xD

try guess who's shoes is that??haha

anyway really happy to have everyone beside me on my birthday eve and on the day...funky man!!!yeah!!

I hope everyone especially my friends from AP 6A2,TP bro,family members and more will be seeing out a great year of 2009...Lots of conflict and twist happens...Wishing all of you happily ever after...^^

And wait wait...haha xD there is still two friend i wanted to thank a lot...^^

chu wei theen...xDD

sunny tan aka qiuyun,haha ^^

thanks for accompanying me singing K...haha you guys rock....xD except qiuyun...she is soft..=X

the ends of my simple yet really really simple birthday bash,^^

Tomorrow

2009-10-21T05:55:00.000-07:00

If i were given an option to determine when i will die...

I will choose tomorrow...

So i would not...
Hesitate to,
Bother to,
Care to,
Doubted to,
Worry to,

Say that i love you...

Even i would die tomorrow...at least it breathe me off the intensity and sadness of the love story of my life

~等着哪一天你也想起,那悬在记忆中的美好~

Life as a Fullback(Glory)

2009-05-31T05:23:00.000-07:00

Well it really takes me lots of time before i put my pen on the last part of my 'Life as a Fullback' story...hehe cause there is something i am waiting for it to arrive before i blog the best part!!!^^

22nd of April 2009,was really an amazing day,the penalty shoot-out in the final was really exciting,thrill with adrenaline rush,i can't imagine i was the centre figure of the whole scene that day,in the final,everybody is watching,the field were surrounded by blocks of classroom,everyone squeeze side by side watching through windows,fences or any open spaces available...wow it was like i am a football star for the moment.....and it all started will a whistle blow,and i am in for it.....bring it on!

Match 4(Final)
Match Analyse:This team from the form 5 students,really threaten us with their's determine defending with man marking technique and counter attack from 2 wide man,i could feel my team member are facing fatigue problems,this is really a bad news as my team main strength lies on full attacking play,the first line up was as following:

Starting 5:
Goalkeeper-Bentley Tee
Winger-Chua Boon Hock
Winger-Lee Tin wai
Midfielder-Adam
Playmaker-Mooi Theng Kang

Strategy:
Attacking:Passing mode,primary target ah mooi to dribble the ball up to open spaces to create chances
Defending:(Our weak link,cause you can see all the on field player are build for attack)defend at will!

So...the match begins,in the first half my team rarely threatens,shooting wide if there was chances and some exposure at the back,in the second half was really nervous for us,as we are under attack,i was throw into 1 big save,diving my right into my near post to save a driving shot,my right arm hurts,so do my right knee caught some scratches...and 1 all-out-rush angle blocking to deny a shot...this really excite the crowd,students start calling me petr cech,cassilas,van der sar arrr..they are happy...well it come to an end for the match and we head for the decider...'THE PENALTY SHOOT-OUT'

I don't know why i was so angry,could we judge it as determined or a sense of something that needed to settle down?i don't know,what is in my mind was i am confident!!!

The shoot-out started with my team to shoot from the spot kick first,i watch near from it,the crowd was so big,students keep on shouting,when my friend was ready to shoot,there was crowd cheering for the opposite team,and i am not surprised...1st shoot my teammate ah mooi shoot it real hard,but it hit low to the left post,the keeper was marooned...now it is my turn for show time!Amazingly,the crowd loves me very much,calling me keeper!keeper!keeper! all the time when i was in action,i was the main star for the event for my decisive saves and bravery,the field was rough,both my left and right arms and knees are bleeding because i dive and throw myself into every saves,that really makes things happen,there is even some telling me 'keeper your leg are bleeding',but at this stage i have only 1 focus,it is the saves i need to make,i stand before the white line,opening wide my hands,squating down a little bit,preparing to jump...and the first shot comes,it goes my left,i save it!the crowd loves it,my teammates roar for it,so do i!

Next,my teammate Boon Hock,takes his run and shot it perfectly nice into the net,the keeper was helpless,my team are thrilled...we are in the lead!Well my turn again,yet,the crowd was so loud,it feels so great and i am so confident for another saves!This shot had dragged some time,it tested my nerves,my legs shakes as time keep running by as i keep claming myself down,the wind was strong,the ball keeps moving out of position,even my teammate ah mooi runs into it to adjust it,he's not really have patient huh...haha,well the next shot came,things was so fast,my focus was so high,the ball drives to my right,and i block it again,YES!it placed us perfectly for the first spot!

Phew!close...1 goal we score then we are champion!my teammate and i watches closely,as Adam took his shot,however he shot it straight to the goalkeeper...My teammate and i was frustrated,yet determined and cheering each other!.....The decider will be between me and 1 of the opposite team member!Come On!

The feelings was tense,the focus was deep and sharp,my feet are so well prepared for the dive,my breathing was hard and slow,my mind was determined!This is so unbelievable,i will remember this second till the last breath of my life!when the the player takes his shot,it comes 3 flashes!Yes 3!...everything was so slow,i can't even listen to the crowd roars,maybe theirs' heart are pounding too and holding their breath for this extraordinary moment,he takes he shots,the motion was so slow like the movie matrix,1st flashes i saw him shots,2nd flashes came,as the ball drives into my right,my body are so flexible and my mind are so alert that my body was already lean into the ball direction,really really like matrix!the 3rd was my hands are on the ball...............and i know the destiny is now for me to lose it!i pushes it over steadily and safely out...the crowd roars!!!I have made it?i have MADE IT!WoooHooooooooooo xP

The first thing in my mind was to scream into delight!I ran towards my jubilant and joyful teammates,we hug each other,and i was hail hero and Man-of-the-Match,Adam and Chin Wu quickly ran into me and throw me into the air,I am a bit shy but care less about it...Because it was my DAY!The Law of Bentley!haha,well many team members from all kinds of colors comes congrats me,i handshake so many people,even the crowd comes to me for admiration!teacher even praised me too,the only thing missing is that my classmates couldn't witness this magical show of mine!Only Chun Tuck sneak out from class to witness it,i am happy,^^...that day where i go,students cheer me,calling me keeper,keeper! 'I want your signature','I want to take picture with you'...haha i dont know whether they are just being playful or whatever,however what i see is that they really respect the way i play and what i had done!

I am satisfy,not really to the maximum of joy,it was a mix feelings and a weird one,i had accomplised my dream of being a champion of an event!more importantly,it was my life long fascinated sport 'football'...and in the near future,i am wanting for more!

For all this hardwork and sacrifices...

"WELL DONE BENTLEY,MISSION 1 ACCOMPLISED"

Well,that is the end of my first big big glory in my 'football career',after so many failure and losses,now i really make something out of it,i would like to thank many people for making me a guy mad of football,although my specialist were my marking skills,through ball passing and ball interception,that none of them were given a chance to show in the eyes of the SMKAP students,but it doesn't matter!22nd of april is my day,my dream and my glory!!!

Thanks for the friends who plays football with me,so many things other than this glory i had gone through makes me enjoy so much,my dad,chan boon hwee,hang tick yi,foong shin wei,chu kim meng,sam,xing nan and chan mun chyuan!

'We love football'

Gold Medal of SMKAP Futsal Competition 2009

~Me~Bentley Tee Ru-Hee

Adam Abdul Bin Karim

Lee Tin Wai,Chua Boon Hock and Mooi Theng Kang

Leong Chin Wu

Lim Wai Choon

The end~

Resolution

2009-05-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

Specially dedicated to my smk ALOR AKAR friends

Actually this post is very direct,as i should have continue writing my post of part 2(the life as a fullback),which i wanted to update the second part after my mid year exam,........now........there is only 1 more day before i finish my exam,however something puts me on into writing again this time.

This time it is about the trial and tribulation i am facing now,something i had feel and stressed about for so long...What happen a moment ago was i had finally contacted my god sister.....it was 3 years and 4 months plus i guess,i finally contacted her,i feel so happy but at the same time i am guilty about it,last time i do chat with her all the time,makes her laugh,making crazy monkey face and what so ever,but now the feelings is not the same,last time i feel great chatting with her,teasing her was not a problem,finding a topic was as easy as ABC.....but,time past by,i am uneasy over how to talk to her now,we growed up,we have all kinds of burdens and stress...Not like last time,where morning i go to school to meet friends,afternoon back home eat,bath,shit and later evening soccer time,and home at late evening relaxing and the routine goes on...Since my move to smk tanah putih,everything change...i gain so much,i earn the students' respect,i am a well known figure just in my 1st month,i am a leader there,and so much...but GOD is fair,he balance it back to me,i feel the effect of it now...the friends from tanah putih i pay attention more was what im gaining now,but the best friends i meet in smk alor akar was fading away,only now i started to finding them back again...and the respond i had was not what i expect and wanted...,i were late,too damn late...i regretted...

I thought leaving smk alor akar would be good for me,YES!i am right,that school(SMKAA) i don't really enjoy,YES!i complained,so i left for smk tanah putih...Though i don't have something to miss about that school,but i started to miss my friend there,i feel like crying writing it now,i really regretted 1 thing that i can't repair was the relationship i had with my old buddies...I miss the young days there!!!When i leave,i dint even whisper a single words of farewell to them,i dint wish them,hold them tight...what worst was,i never contacted them.....

For me,being a best friend was someone who are not only able to have a say,but we should have a readied shoulder for them to lean on,update on their news,theirs ups and downs...this is what i completely fail as a friend...I realize it early,i shows loyalty to them,patient and a tendency to keep in touch with them,only some...some that i afraid i could never overcome...

To my best buddy from smk alor akar Kong Chun Yee,who always eager to help me when i am facing trouble,I am sorry,i should appreciate you more,the I.U night you attend just for me,i will always remember your true friendship and loyalty...

To my cute god sister from smk alor akar Chew Ann Lu,i am so sorry that i failed as a 'brother' to protect you,when i chat with you for the first time in 3 years plus,you seems to have faced many problems,which i don't even know a single one.....I just can't stop imaginating you crying and needing someone to console,but...there is no one,and the 'brother' is not there either,it was hurt...

To my other buddies,i deeply regretted and i apologize for the very first time in 3 years...What i wish was you all have a great life ahead,stay healthy and happy...take good care......

Sincerely from me~

Life as a Fullback(A True Story behind the Scene)

2009-05-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

Occation:SMK Air Putih Futsal 2009 Competition
Date:22nd April 2009,Wednesday(sunny day)
Time:11:50am
Venue:SMK Air Putih Futsal Court
Field Condition:Rough Concrete(not on grass)
Match Playing:Final(Penalty shoot-out)

Story unfold...
Crowd roar:Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!

Match Analyse Up-to-date:6 gang1-0'form5' in penalty shoot-out,'form5' team need to score the last penalty to force a sudden death.

Crowd roar:Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!Keeper!

Bentley:(what is running in my mind)I must save this shot,this job has been long awaits...just one push to make it happen,one push for my FIRST GLORY!

Referee:Piii(Whistle blow)

Player from 'form5' take his shot!it drives to my right,i jumped towards it,crowd are silent,team players are concentrating,the eyes of the whole SMKAP school student are watching,just 1 block,i would be champion...As the ball drives nearer,this is the moment...

18 years 3 months and 12 days earlier...
As a young kid born in Malaysia,lays a small city called Kuantan,where not many people know its existance...I had gone through a lot,when i was young,at the age of 8,i fall in love with football.I'm quite a huge Brazil fans,but now Chelsea FC overtakes all before i even watch football...My passion for football also comes from my dad too,he influence me a lot,and i enjoyed it,he was a famous striker in the old days,and what i always urge to be was a skillful winger,however i ended up playing further behind as a fullback,my friend often says i defended well,hmmm...it's true,i can mark,tackle and neutralise attacker way better than i dribble,shot or run swiftly as a winger,so life goes on...I'm a fullback till now!

People might often says i'm dogmatic,ya they are right,however i say it was determination...what i like,i would give my 100% for it...And the sad case was in sport,i never achieve the highest,i would like to be champion of any event(I was forced to skip 2 year of trial selection for my former school SMKTP in football 'daerah' competition,I lost my 800m final,400m in qualifiers,i lost in 2km walk,coming 7th place,tarik tali i should had earn a silver medal for my commander like technique in helping the team,but...i give it to my friend for some reason),so i miss that out again,for the consolation achievement was when i was in SMK Alor Akar,i won runner-up in a futsal competition under-14 and a 8th place winning medal in cross country competition under-15.So i had been thriving hard for a senior medal now!!

And it all begin in a sudden!

Date:21st April 2009,Tuesday(cloudy day)
Time:7:15am
Venue:SMK Air Putih 6A2 classroom

Adam:ei,bentley...i want to ask you arrkk...your leg huh... is it veri itchy??huh???

Bentley:wah...yala,itchy la...

Adam:want play futsal?SMKAP futsal competition,want join??

(immediately i says YES!)

Bentley:Of cuz man,count me in!!!^^

Adam:ok arr...BUT.....we enough people d,we just need keeper,you can play keeper mah??

Bentley:ermm...ok arrr,play play lo..

Absolutely a disaster,dad a striker,i wanna to be a winger,but better in fullback...and now my senior debut was a keeper??!!!what THE...xD,well nevermine,my team on field players are strong also you see...

Team Name:6 Gang
Team Member:Mooi Theng Kang(Winger)
Adam(Striker)
Chua Boon Hock(Striker)
Lee Tin Wai(Striker)
Bentley Tee(Goalkeeper)
Leong Chin Wu(Centre Back)
Lim Choon Wai(Centre Back)

Date:22nd April 2009,Wednesday(sunny day)
Time:8:00am
Venue:SMK Air Putih 6A2

Preparing,joking along with friends,i don't think they expect me to perform well,cause I myself don't even have confident in playing a goalkeeping role,well sometimes playing with my friends i could perform,but sometimes,erm maybe often i do not...well only learn by watching how goalkeeper perform in television...well,thats my only preparation,as there is 1 day before competition that i only been invited to join,xD

Occation:SMK Air Putih Futsal 2009 Competition
Date:22nd April 2009,Wednesday(sunny day)
Time:8:20am
Venue:SMK Air Putih Futsal Court
Field Condition:Rough Concrete(not on grass)
Match Playing:Not started yet
Type of Event:Knock-out stages
Number of Team participating:16 teams
Playing rules:5 player on field for each team,10 minute to play for,2
reserves,substitution can be made unlimitedly,no sliding tackles,to
score a goal...a player must score from outside the penalty box and
blah blah blah...

after listening to briefing,blah blah blah...well saw many players,big size,small size,handsome,not handsome,berlagak one,very friendly one...well really wanna it to start,and FAST!but there's a bit of uncomfortable feelings that i am going to play as a goalkeeper...and the first match is us to play...swt xD

Match 1(Last 16)
Macth Analyse:6 Gang defeated a form3 team easily 3-0 without any trouble,and i don't even have to make a save,and this makes me nervous as no player had tested my ability...

Match 2(Quater Final)
Match Analyse:6 gang defeated a form5 team,don't know what name la,they all gives weird names,haha well we won 2-0,as i made an important saves to deny a shot from a guy that i dont like,lucky huh!ya and it's rest period,my friends from 6A2 watch too,hehe it tested me,although it's only 1 save,but it started to gives me confident that my respond and focus are strong and fast...

Match 3(Semi-final 1)
Match Analyse:6 gang defeated another form 5 team called MVP..i guess,well the team very friendly,i like that team,we drew 1-1,but later won penalty shoot-out 1-0,i grow confidently in the semi-final match,as i was continuously being tested,i block shots,i made a few saves,i run out my area to block,however i conceded 1 goal,which i should had save...in the penalty shoot-out,i was not nervous surprisingly,i'm very determined and confident,well it started with the opposite player hit the post,wow!i'm lucky man,the second my team member shot straight at the goalkeeper,erm next my turn,the guy shot to my left i guess,i block it...yeah,things turn better,ah mooi score,which puts us leading,n later the last 1 if he miss or i save it,we will be going to the final,and yeah!!he missed it...the ball flying wide to my right...haha we celebrated,and im happy we are going to the final,^^

Macth 3(Semi-final 2)
Match Analyse:This match was exciting,it plays after our semi final,well both team are form5 i guess,1 consist of pure chinese from art class,and the other consist of indian and malay team members,and they are the school representative and yes,they are the overwhelming favourite,they score 5-0 and 4-0 to enter the semi-final,we are ready of facing them,waiting and resting...however surprisingly with the chinese team putting up a solid containing technique in dealing with the team,they are unable to penetrate their defences,in the second half,they tumbles,and a great counter attack in a swift 2 minutes,the chinese team score twice and put them through to the final...what a relieve for us,however it also remains a concern for us that they actually dangerous too...

Match 4(Final)
Finally Im in a Final again,but that was 5 years ago,i lost that match,and this is a chance for me to make it 1 more step of achieving my long awaits dream,that is CHAMPION,This is my chance,This is my time,This is the moment... of my life!

To be continue...

Earth Hour(Law of the Earth)

2009-03-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

EARTH HOUR

WWF(World Wide Fund For Nature)
~What is happening again on this earth?Think again...
~Now,there are 2.2 billion more mouths to feed now than there were in 1970.....
~1.2 billion of world's poor live less than US$1(RM3.80) a day.....
~half of the world's rivers are depleted and polluted in 2002.....
~Only 1% of the world's ocean are protected reserve.....
~Each year 14.6 million hectares of forests felled.....
~The world tiger population had fell from 30000 in 1980 to less than half of it now,in Peninsula Malaysia there were 200 tigers at last count.....
~Mankind is using 20% more natural resources than can be generated in the presents.....
~In 20 years 60% of the coral reefs in the world will be totally destroyed...

what is your heart telling you now?Right now...

Not only the nature hurts...Every single seconds,millions of tears drops...thousands of livestock slaughtered...hundreds of heartbeat stops,tens of trees falls...

2 war in present is still going on,1 war is coming,1 nuclear threat to the entire world,1 of the worst world economic strike....

animal cruelty,child abuse,war,air pollution,water pollution,illegal hunting,human over population.....

Destruction of coral reefs,deforestation,open burning,badly controled waste.....

These is all the act of human,how could it brought such a big impact to the world?Why this is happening?What about the future?What about us?What about the children?How we could ever repay these debts to the earth?We are only one people,how do we face the entire world by ourself?We need help...And,

Earth Hour Is Our Beginning

Let us show the love to the world!
Out of racist,sexist,colours,language,culture and tradition
WE
the sons and daughters of the mother EARTH
let us all unite and bring the moment where we stare at peace,sincerity,hopes,loyalty and love side by side with all the people around the world...
AND WE MAKE A STRONG STAND!
For 1 hour,28th of March 2009 starting 8.30pm-9.30pm,WE the children of the EARTH,we switch off all of our electricity,not only at home,but...in wherever and whatever destination we are in!

For the future of the nature!

For the future of Man's closest friends!

For the future of our generation!

Let us start now,practising the nurturing touch to reach other's people hearts,be green,be caring,let us smile to the world...
And let them know EARTH we care....

This is just the beginning

金牛座之三月的错觉，三年的安全感

2009-01-29T18:50:00.000-08:00

thursday,29th january 2009

ring..ring..
ring..ring..
ring..------------------------------------------------------------
"hello,the person you call is unavailable,please tr............................."

小麟小榕法律

Yo my love,wasuup?
You are staring me with your glaring beautiful eyes again,
I wonder what you were thinking;
But it doesn't matter,no more.....
Cause I decided to love you,all my heart,
Now and forever...

Hey girl what next?
What movie you wanna to watch?
What kind of lunch you prefer?
You seems fine with anything...
Holding your hands,hampered my mindset..
I just could keep thinking of not letting go your soft,smooth hands,
It had makes me to love you deeper,
Right now,Right here..
On the beach side of a starry night...
I present you a love,which i would never forget...
As the night out long,here born a perfect love story.....

oh my gosh,oh no my heart...
how could it ended up like this?
days pass by,emotion runs me off telling you are no more there for me...
i was wrong baby,and this time I break your heart,
from the sunrise to beyond dusk...
light falls,
winds stop calling,
our tears drying,
as it all ends,i linger on the feelings i had been bearing for so long...
unspoken

hi there,my.....
the moment and senses of humour and love is lost,
i cant stand always pretending that I'm OK in front of you,
your cool and calm appearance seems to be fading away...
like i was only your shadows,
not able to talk to you,
just...to stare you without your knowledge.....

i just could tell you,how much i love you,more than anyone could imagine girl...

i cry cry,yo my love,say goodbye......

***
**
*
I do hurt a lot,when days I'm missing you,i regretted my action of how the way i hurt your feelings...i was so wrong,after nearly a year since 12th of march 2008...i still can't forget the softness you bring to my life...thank you...i had a good new life after we went separate ways,i study with whole new bunch of new friends,we joke,we laugh,we eat,tuition and hang out often together...i can't ask for more about my life...

however,sometimes i do think about you...i stare out the windows from my classroom into a blue soft skies,i saw you...when i'm in TC beach,i always spend a few minutes right on the beach side spot we once dated,flashing back how sweet it were...sometimes,at home alone resting,i think of you,and this was one of the worst moment,i could drops a few teardrops...i wonder how you had been...are you happy?are you sick?a new guy is there for you?would you remember me?.....i don't really know...what best was i know i still had the feelings for you...

i admit i really have many 'girl' friends...i know many people and the way i talk seems to be very care free and 'flower',however deep inside me when i love someone,there would be only 1...,still,you are someone i wanna to be with so much...

what makes our relation sour?...it was complicated,if...IF...3 things are not appear nor happen would our love keeps fire on?

1st is one of my best buddy phua,if i could know he is still having feelings for you,,i would have supported him instead,or maybe you having to tell me later,would our love would not ended up like this?

2nd was my ex...if i could appreciate you more rather than me still missing her...could it makes me more attentive to you?if she doesn't exist...i guess i really would not be so emotional and maybe...just maybe we could have a great love story...

3rd and lastly was the timing...12th of march 2008,was the day of mixed feelings...i surely still love you,but i found out you are quite uncertain and uncomfortable with our love...so here makes me moves to the wrong steps...yes my brothers they are right in scolding me,i should spend more time with you,be more patient...if i decide to take the action a day later would i realize that you still loves me???and YES I WOULD...and just 1 day separate,how i wish i could change the time...to tell you how much i love you and wanna to protect you...

But...it's done...done..........

***
**
*
this is my last words for you...
在这一年来我对不起了一个人，这个人在我心中摆放这一个很重要的位子，那个人就是你，我想对你说一句话很久，那就是...“我爱你，不是因为你是谁，而是我在你面前可以是谁”，如果今天我不讲我怕再也没机会跟你讲，

小榕.....对不起

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Chelsea

2009-01-11T10:07:00.000-08:00

12nd January 2009

2009
What a day to remember...i wrote this blog right just after my beloved chelsea lost 3-0 to title rival manchester united.It was not a sad nor an angers in me.But a purely disappointment on too much factors...i will tell you guys why...

(1990s-2005)
I don't know how to start.....But i feel so wanna to express my stories about chelsea...Here it goes...
In my early years of schooling,the first sport i really get inspired was football,my dad was a great footballer,he's a well known striker in his time...when i was a young kid,he taught me the culture of football,the legends,the skills,resolution and he even bring me to his match too,although it's only a solid number of 1 i had agree to follow my dad to his match...but the things is i can remember every second of how my dad score in that match,it ended 2-0,my dad scored both goals,he's wearing white t-shirt with a koala bear image on it...sitting on the chilling field.....alone i saw the greatness of my dad,he score one with a long strike after dribbling through some defenders,well next the second and last goal,was a superb diving header...it was a thriller...which makes me hope...

Furthermore...things doesn't just start there...my passion and love for football have another hidden pictures,which i don't really wanna to tell...It was chelsea,a london football club...The very first football team i know...Yes!It was Chelsea FC,i know this club when i was very young too,when i was 7 or 8 years old...Surprising to everyone,cause Chelsea ain't that popular,with the likes of stronger and more well known team manchester united,newcastle united,liverpool FC and Arsenal...How i got to know chelsea first was a question to many...I know it through Chelsea's FC team song...'Chelsea Chelsea'...The feelings of my love to Chelsea FC is not that strong at the beginning,what i appreciate the most is that this club was the first team i ever know in my life...Other than watching a bit part of football matches during the 1998 World Cup,life goes on...I play badminton more often,basketball too...football?not really often...Things change when i was in form1(2003),march 4...i really remembered when one of my best pal had a birthday party at his house,nice food,nice reunion with old pals and nice football match...football match???yeah...It was newcastle united vs chelsea that night,I don't really know anything about football,well i ask my friend,wow chelsea ke???chelsea sure win,however it turn out to be I'm pretty out-dated,newcaste united was favourite and a really strong team,with legendary manager bobby robson,with top striker alan shearer and chelsea with a team of 'OK' players marcel desailly,gianfranco zola and celestine babayaro...All of my friend support newcastle,and they seems really sure newcastle are the favourite,and well it turn out that i feel really wanna to support Chelsea,sympathetic?childhood hero?nah....i don't know....Well the match ended,with Newcastle won the match 2-1,however my feelings telling me that chelsea will be bouncing back really soon...So it all started...I support Chelsea

Reading newspaper everyday,just about sport,the season of 03/04 ended with chelsea 5th or 6th i guess,or maybe 4th...cant remember...hehe,and surprisingly a huge takeover by billionaire roman abramovich...Which makes me like in the cloud 9...Big investment makes Chelsea one of the top spending team on players...Hernan Crespo,Claude Makelele,Adrian Mutu,Damien Duff and more flow in...Slowly Chelsea climb up the table of EPL and what a historical football moment created...I enjoy every moment of it...My best was certainly to be the 04/05 season,which was my ever best manager Jose Mourinho...we won the title,which was the first time in exactly half a century...Players like Frank Lampard,Arjen Robben,John Terry,Petr Cech,Eidur Gudjohnson,Paolo Ferreira,Ricardo Carvalho,Didier Drogba and more...makes me more eager to play football....

(2003-2009)
I started my so called 'professional' football journey when i was form 1...And bunch of new friends who loves football,we train almost everyday...we talk about football always too...And football was a life to me...But things don't really work out for me...I wanna to play like my dad,his style of play was so flair and deadly...his pace was outstanding,fisnihing was accurate so do his dribble skills...but i just can't play the way he is...Instead im more to a build up of a full back(a defender on the wing),from the very first year till now,i always plays better in a defending role,but the truth is my favourite position was a creative and speedy winger,just...I don't seems confident anymore in playing a flair and attacking play...which my eagerness for a flair type extinct in the early chapter of my soccer life...And well,turned into a hard tackling defender cum emergency forward...and till now...im still a full back...how disappointed i still can't make a change...

12nd january 2009
To make things worst...my beloved Chelsea team are in a struggle now...lost to liverpool,arsenal and burnley,and now manchester united...In addition,I have no friend to share Chelsea ups and downs,I just can tell you guys,none...really,all were M.U,Liverpool,Arenal and even Everton...Other than my sister,who support Chelsea a time ago cause of the handsome 'special one',.....and now...the 'special one' is gone,she lost her interest...I really don't know what the hack is happening to Chelsea FC,how can the system got so wrong???can't they be more spirited and determined to make up the lost?...the 07/08 season??the champions league shoot out?the runner up in carling cup and in the EPL???i'm fed up to see the way the players plays,a big centre forward supported by bunch of playmakers,a holding midfield just in front of usual back 4...What turn out to be?...SUCKS...Anelka?i dislike his play...inconfident,shooting power are lame and his determination is .....OMG!Scolari knows what Chelsea needs,a flair player...Robinho right?but he snub a move to join newly crown mega billionaire club(Manchester City),neverminen still got some dribbling players like shaun wright phillips,flornet malouda and salomon kalou(although characteristically not like C.Ronaldo,Arjen Robben,Lionel Messi),instead he sell shaunny and opt to play a bunch of old lads in a packed centre midfield(lampard,ballack and deco)...nevermine also...if can break the defences with brilliant passes ok la...But the case is ballack and deco always can't make a defence-breaking pass,sloppy,loose balls...jon obi mikel sometimes tough,when shooting chances comes,he shoot balloon...nikolas anelka?wah...very geng woh,top scorer in the league,bullshit...i watch chelsea match week in week out...see how he score...walao geng leh...flying volley at the near post tat 1 ok la...others you know?don't know?Aku beritahu...lazy wooden legs finishing at a few cm,deflected off people's butt,and 1 more more geng,chelsea's player Alex shoot from close range and the ball is rolling in the net,and kids also know sure goal de,he so busy body stick out his legs and score...WHAT???!...Okay...what the hack,and he's offside leh...== what the...I can't say anything about him anymore...Drogba?i love him...but don't always pok kai so easily lo...

Other than Frank Lampard and Petr Cech...no more...
Even John Terry seems low in confident,last time before referee blow Pee-Pee,he will come to protect the players and argue for them...now???i don't know what happen...although he always impress me with his tackles...

I don't know how Chelsea could be in the future...The attacking midfield player already that 'old'...Still buy Deco in even though have Lampard and Ballack playing the same role...3 of them sum up can also almost reach 100 years old arrr...

I can talk more actually...about chelsea under performances...but im going to end short although it's very long...

(Who should go?)
4 players must go,Anelka,Deco,Malouda and Ballack...Why?Anelka and Deco are low in confident and how young are they arrr???==,well ballack a surprise one cause if deco and him gone...who will stand in for Lampard if he's injured?...For me scout for other players younger,and Ballack is arrogant(i just cant tahan when i read a article a few days ago about him)...Malouda?inconsistent

(What kind of player should come in?)
1.winger is the asset to rebuild Chelsea...fresh and young blood,flair and motivate enough to break up stubborn defences with tactically skillful and fast....
2.a supporting attacking forward player...try to watch chelsea's match...see the opposite keeper,they wont have any saves to do...cause????== Chelsea cant even shot on target...Frank Lampard can make a pass,but he need someone to help him open up spaces(winger) and a player to help create an offensive vision outside the penalty box likes the player of zinedine zidane,steven gerrard,fabregas or rivaldo...
3.a young striker for the future...altough we have franco di santo,but im inconvince yet
4.not a player for this...is the defending system...essien must return fast to cover the exposure of chelsea the role in between midfield and defence which mikel still couldn't carry out...dealing with set pieces is weak...ashley cole,jose bosingwa,john terry and ricardo carvalho is good enough...it must be something wrong...defend coach or the system???tak tau...

Finally,I just wanna to express my feelings,which I really want one day I could see the Chelsea spirit again...sorry for criticising much of the players...and for my outburst...I hope it could fire up myself once more...

CHELSEA.....forever CHELSEA!!!

Renaissance

2008-11-17T13:28:00.000-08:00

17th November 2008

(A True Story)
this story linked with the 3 love affair story(drowned of i,love of dark element & broken bridge)

The road is breaking apart,buildings is cracking down,as sun flares,things burns,shadows melting,the air gets thicker,it was so hard to live on without you.....

Waking up everyday in the morning,I wish I could keep sleeping,cause I don't want to remember you.God broke His spell,and I met you again in the middle of a crowded night.A moment of you easing my pain,recalling the last laugh,last tears,last talk in the last raining day.....

Do you catch a breath?When I stare at you,
Do you feel something amiss?When I ask how you are,
Do you catch a sight?when I fake a smile,
Do you feel something heavy?When I stop teaching you.

It was NO.........

It was because someone dream you through,and you start holding him,tight and tighter.But what about me?Am I crazy or falling in love and you are holding back,look at you......What is happening?You seems so in love with his gallery rather than my art of work.

I hate you,but I love you more.....The way you tease me,the way you shove me is gone.....gone,your touch,.....sight,.....voice,.....smell,.....is gone.....all is gone,all is going away.........

I'm leaving.....

Leaving forever......

Renaissance is what I hope for,into a new world where I can start and stay forever......till a moment where I was a stranger to you,as it last,last forever.....

家、好、月、圓、慶、中、秋(mun chyuan,chun leong,thye leang,tze kai,boon kin,bentley tee & pey ling)

2008-10-25T08:09:00.000-07:00

家、好、月、圓、慶、中、秋
25th October 2008
This is a true story of friendship which i had gone through...
i can consider this is the best friendship line i had ever been on...n it is the life in SMKTP(2006-2007),where we started to form a so-called gang?band or watever '6 Brother',it consisit of our big bro chan mun chyuan,2nd bro tan chun leong,3rd bro phua thye leang,4th bro chin tze kai,5th bro cheong boon kin & finally me the 6th bro bentley tee kuok rhee...^^

we are well known in our class with many nicknames from any kind of actor...below is some intro of the 6 of us...n aso incoming ah sou chin pey ling,whom are chun leong's life long girl friend...xD

chan mun chyuan:
-4th sep 1989
-aka:andy lau,dai pao,cmc,abc,ah 家 & etc
-tarc college
-well he is very famous guy,sociable,friendly,quite shy & a great companion for all...crazy for sometimes too,girls likes him a lot la...rich also,and always drive benZ out...walao

tan chun leong:
-24th oct 1989
-aka:stephen chow,nisterooy,ah 好 & etc
-polytechnic school
-hmmm,lolz he can be consider as the most quiet guy in our gang,but sometimes can be very talkative,loyal to his girl friend and good in maths...

phua thye leang:
-30th nov 1989
-aka:p.ramlee,phua,ah 月 & etc
-tarc college
-lolz...p.ramlee?keke he is friendly & i think he always love to involve and bring people into conversation when one's is not talking,especially girls guah...haha

chin tze kai:
-16th aug 1990
-aka:jet li,mr.chin,ah kai,ah 圓 & etc
-tarc college
-haiz..he realli care about his look,he is the one who bring the 'love yourself image',that makes us always stick to the mirror,consider the most handsome fellow in our gang,well last time his body consist many oil,haha now ok d...^^

cheong boon kin:
-21st aug 1990
-aka:alan tam,gambang boy,ah 慶 & etc
-tarc college
-ermmm,his is an out going,adventurous boy,dare to speak and give his opinion openly...he is the one who lives dam far away from us...however always manage to join us...haha he is my driving sifu and his families do connect to me sometimes...muahaha and further is secret...

bentley tee ru-hee:
-11th dec 1990
-aka:jay chou,bruce lee,gillian chung,sai pao,ah 中 & etc
-form6(pre-U)
-haha,that's me la...no need to know that deeply,keke anyway im just as special as they do....

chin pey ling:
-5th sep 1990
-aka:chin,ah 秋 & etc
-tarc college
-lolz...she arrr sometimes talk so loud,and talkative also...well kinda critical and a perfectionist...hmmm very clean lo her...haha and she is our ah sou...

Statement:
after the year 2007,which we all sat for our spm and till march 12 we receive our results,yeah there is some flying colours and some not...but it is not the point anymore,as many of us parted ways,i had join form 6 in smk air putih school,where mun chyuan,pey ling,thye leang,boon kin and tze kai joined tarc college in KL,and chun leong makes the biggest change of his life to polytechnic school in kuantan...where we were distanced by distance...although we get to reunion again but conversation topics changed,the activities,lifestyle is a whole different world from mine and chun leong,where i always dont seems to get into it,but it is not the case anymore where im happy they are all back all the time.But 24th oct 2008 which was chun leong's 19th birthday,as his life really change from a full chinese school to a class which monopolize by malays,which he lack the communication skills with them in bahasa malaysia and the environment,some bad times happened to him and more,sometimes i feel pity for him,and during his birthday some brothers fails to msg him to wish him,and he sounds unhappy,which concerned me,as all of them had make it in time back to kuantan to celebrate,which we celebrated in just relax that night,he sounds to be better,boon kin and i sweat a lot,as strategising ideas,buying present and more...which that night was quite a boost to our relation...as it borned a new characters of 家好月圓,i really afraid our amazing relation would become dim,however i think we are still as solid as ever,really thanks to chun leong's birthday,without his birthday celebration,there wont be this realization...well 6 brothers forever and 家、好、月、圓、慶、中、秋!

(the true story of 6 brothers is far long,as it covers hardship,triumph and fantasy world which they had gone through,and it happened in a small town called kuantan in pahang,malaysia,do appreaciate your friends,talk heart to heart where a great journey could begin and ever blooming)

周杰倫 (給我一首歌的時間/女儿红) 歌詞

2008-10-23T18:40:00.000-07:00

作詞：周杰倫作曲：周杰倫
雨淋濕了天空毀得很講究
妳說妳不懂為何在這時牽手
我曬乾了沉默悔得很衝動
就算這是做錯也只是怕錯過

在一起叫夢～
分開了叫痛～
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛～
迷路的後果～
我能承受這最後的出口在愛過了才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最後才說再見
妳送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天
哦越過妳劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

雨淋濕了天空毀得很講究
妳說妳不懂我為何在這時牽手
我曬乾了沉默悔得很衝動
就算這是做錯也只是怕錯過

在一起叫夢～
分開了叫痛～
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛～
迷路的後果～
我能承受這最後的出口在愛過了才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最後才說再見
妳送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天
哦越過妳劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

哦妳說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛妳
要怎麼證明我沒有說謊的力氣哦請告訴我
暫停算不算放棄我只有一天的回憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最後才說再見
妳送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天
哦越過妳劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

妳說我不該不該不該在這時說了愛妳
要怎麼證明我沒有力氣告訴我暫停算不算放棄
妳說我不該不該不該在這時才說愛妳
要怎麼證明我沒有力氣我只有一天的回憶

What will? if

2008-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

(fri,11th july 2008)

What will if?....this is specially dedicated to all my friends which i sincerely appreciate their nurture touch,love and companion...it will include all friends from my primary life till pre-university...which started from my primary school called SJK(C) Kuang Hwa,which i spend 6 years there,later i continue my academic journey to secondary school in SMK Alor Akar,which i can consider it was the worst 3 years in school,but some friends of course i will never forget for your companion,well i requested a transfer to SMK Tanah Putih,which the 2 year i spend there was one of the best,my life change,soon after finishing my form 5,i enter pre-uni(form 6) in SMK Cenderawasih,where my jovial and happy journey continues,sadly due to distance away from home,i requested another transfer again...Now in 2008,im settling down in SMK Air Putih,which new friends,new life and of course my proud friendship line again continues shining brightly....

The joys,tears,trials and tribulation,teamwork and more will be always remembered till the last breathe i breath...life doesn't get hard even without you guys,however the memory you all paint on my life was inevitably to be erase,and im sorry sometimes i do hurt some of your feelings,but i never meant to...so guys i proudly present you all a so-called bentley's product of poem(What will if)

*School code:SJK(C)Kuang Hwa,SMK Alor Akar,SMK Tanah Putih,SMK Cenderawasih,SMK Air Puith,other schools will be listed*

WHAT WILL IFF

What will?if time stopped?
What will?if i am tracking backwards through the clock now?
What will?i return to make amend?
What will?neither triumph nor disastes were to answer me?
What will?shadow was fading away?
What will?i am to be a guy without company?

Never thought,you are the one who found my light through,
Never thought,you are the one who taught me to reach the limit,
Never thought,you are the one who gave me wings to fly free,
Never realise,i am the one who is missing to meet your trials and tribulation,
Never realise,i am the one who darken the light you set,
Never realise,i am the one who first to leave without goodbyes.

If,i were given a chance to change,
and make changes into chances to what mean of friendship;
If,i were given time to think,
and makes thought into decades to what mean of eternity;
If,i were given colours to choose,
and make choices into imagination to what mean of peace.

I will let go the world we are,
to be unite by faith and death;
I will be the first to step into the battle field,and...
to be the last to leave the field;
I will be everywhere fighting anything for everything,
to be,if i could turn back the time.

What will you do?if.....

Sincerely presented to:

*amelia ng ruiyi(SMKB,KL),ayu swee ling(TP,AP),ben(ipoh),bryan tan(TP),chah siew ling(TP),chai pei xing(TP),chan poh shin(TP),chan boon hwee(sabs),chan feng yi(CW),chan kok kit(AA),chan moh theng(KH,TP),chan mun chyuan(TP),chay tong seng(TP),chee leong(KH,AP),cheng jing chao(TP),cheong boon kin(TP),chew ann lu(AA),chew yung ni(SMKTA),chin fook yen(TP),chin pey ling(TP),chong ming fai(AA),chin tze kai(KH,TP),choo jun yong(TP),choo mern chuan(KH,TP)choy sze ting(TP),chu wei theen(AP),desmond yong(KH,AA),foong shin wei(AA),goh chun seong(AP),hang tick yi(TP),hong ching chuan(KH,AA),hong ee von(AA),hui zhan ming(TP),jasmine(KH),joanne gan(TP),khor eddie(TP,AP),kong chun yee(AA),kweh boon how(AA),lai shu chun(TP),leong de lon(KH,TP),leong yin chen(KH,TP),lim jin dan(TP),lim zhi hui(KH,AA)loy liang sik(AA,AP),manili(KH),ng chun tuck(AP),ng kok lin(AP),ng meng hui(TP,AP),ng see kai(TP,CW),ng teck hou(TP),ng yee joo(TP,AP),ong wui lynn(TP),phua thye leang(TP),pinky ong(KH,TP),raney tan rou jane(AP),saw yee lin(KH),seah han nan(KH),sean lee chee hou(AA),sher ling(AA),siew weng hou(TP),tan chun leong(TP),tan see eng (TP),tan kai lee(TP),tan kai sin(JB),tan qui yun(AP),tang soon fang(TP),teh jia hui(CW),teoh how wai(TP,CW),tham choon how(SMKB,KL),vivian hew(TP),wai hong(ipoh),wan joo hung(TP),wen loon(TP),wilson ngoh(TP),wong mei rong(TP),wong sze wei(SMKTA),wong wai wen(SMKTA),yap wai yee(KH,TP),yau sheng lerk(AP),yen chen(KH,AA),yeoh iun yi(TP)*

LAW OF FRIENDSHIP

Broken Bridge(episode 3:finale)

2007-12-16T22:22:00.000-08:00

Sun,16th december 2007
brOkeN BridGe
Just i have been feeling all time,that you are here……….no more,however i am not alone,i have friends…but still something was missing.

Endeavour of mine was to see you once in charismatical autumn,travelling together through spring,feeling summer warm holding your hand,But……winter has arrived and not gone since……..you and i.

Sensing you always on 6th of december,remembering how idiot i was on 17th of april…memorable and sweet,mid may,was when i have been waiting you,you asked…missing your voices…till june i died…

Say it now,hold me now,call me now,i dont want to forget the taste anymore…Fearing the darkness to haunt me since you leave me,i dont care that you ever betrayed me,just please dont go.

In the very end,there will be no beauty under the moon,mourning and blaming myself from hiding away from you,our relation was a mystery,divide between us was unacceptable,i need to start sweating,for you…

Cause there could be a better one founded you,and what do i have to hold?…When you are not there to hold me tight?Try to hold this feelings under control,i am trying hard to breathe now,……..i fall long ago…

After all,are you that afraid of me?…I know there is no chance we will be together once more,so girl……for you i will be what Man call perfect and triumph……..Even i am in love with someone,you will always be my love,all because

i love you

Love of Dark Element(episode 2)

2007-10-11T21:38:00.000-07:00

Thurs,11th october 2007
LOVE OF dARK ELEMENT
I’m build of water,they said…
However,i’m build of steel and fire,solid n expansive,
It is easy 2 say i’m wrong of all,
Since u r gone,
I’m a man of no longer,
Shadow is my soul as fire is my blood,
I have endure the pain for centuries,
Changed by millions of swords tat pierce through my heart n mind,
Not known by u,
Every seconds without u;putting me nearer n closer 2 a breaking point.

Takes wats left of this man,
I’m a man who r unknown 2 death so do life r unknown 2 me,
It was when 1941,
I heard none of words from u,
You choose 2 ignore facts n me,
Of cuz mayb my thoughts r wrong,
Whatever it is,
I dont care,all i wan…yes it’s u,just u

Going bak 2 where our feelings start fire,
Where darkness not seen,
So do tears,
An unbreakable moment;just a little bit more 2 get 2 ur heart,
Where a paradise haven waits,
Just a little bit more…
Yet,aging man could not last long,
Becuz of the words i hold was still yet 2 accomplish…
However,i’m proud even i was just ur shadow,
Sharing every bit of disaster n triumph of urs,
Time does change us…………
I might no longer hold on,
Remembering ur jovial eyes,cherry taste of ur lips,ur broken smiles,and even not remembering the charm of ur face…

But still,
It does not matter,
As long tat i know i love u b4,till the end,it will mean something!it will….

Drowned of i(episode 1)

2007-06-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

(sun,24th june 2007)
WAT WRITTEN IN THE DIARY
Who r u now?r u still the same or did u change somehow?wat r u doing?…at this dying moment tat i try not 2 think of u!wat r u thinking during days n nitez?when i was trying 2 accept all the fact tat hurts me all along!who do u wan the most now?in this dream i tend not 2 let u slip away…

Forever has now began,every line,every words n everything tat i promise u…seems so neutral n passive tat i dun dare 2 look through my own path road ahead,tat i rather die in ur arms…however this thing keeps haunting me,whispering all days n nites 4 me 2 search 4 the answer,answer tat i most afraid of…i ran away from the answer,i would never know wat u nid the most,but i know i can replace all wif simply ‘i lov u’…becuz during my hide,wats hidden inside me was empty n missing n it was ur everything tat no longer hold me on…

Day light gone faster than wat man could imagine,the nite fill up all the misery i did 2 u…seconds minutes hours days weeks months n years r passing by…i know i wont hav much time,as man always hav theirs candle blow when the limit arrived,i nid 2 tell u wats inside me,but when i would hav the chance 2 do so?where it occur n wat would happen after…mayb till my last breathe,i couldn’t do so!

Now,i just could pray,wish n hoping tat ur lovable smile maintain ever after,the smile tat i miss the most,the smile tat i wan the most,the smile tat was everything n eternity in every man life…i never felt hapi b4,it was all bcuz of u…im grateful 2 hav u in my life,so baby i wan 2 stay n wait,i dun wan 2 run away,i wan 2 face the hardship n baby the 1 u should call is standing here all alone…

The feelings so strong,n i know there is still sumthing left in my head…i promise u tat i wont 4get the way u light my life,were lasting so long…

Please knock my door,b4 im gone…